Numb

i’m tired of feeling but not feeling.

it’s like being in the dark and seeing a light but it constantly disappearing. something similar to flickering.

but that leads to more than disappointment.

it’s consistent hope and faith being broken, it’s complete dissatisfaction. it’s the split second you’re happy but then you come to realisation that you’re absolutely not.

being numb isn’t something that can be worded.

i’m in pain, the thoughts are aching me and hurting me.

i’m feeling pain, on holding on.

i don’t feel the same, it’s just pain.

so numb.