Lost within myself

i’m not sure where to start but here it is…

i’m lost and i’m pushing myself from everything and everyone possible.

i’m using this pandemic as an excuse to isolate from the outside world as much as i can. this includes me cutting outside contact and those few bonds i thought will last forever didn’t. this affected me insanely and still is.

i have no one. nobody to talk to or to open up to and even when i do open up i feel like the most heaviest burden i could be on someone.

so i stopped telling and sharing my pain, i’m suffering in silence without help nor any input.

i’m falling apart and there’s not much to say.

my escape was to leave the house and walk for hours and travel on my own, i enjoyed it so much. now that i can’t and haven’t is breaking my heart. i haven’t stepped into a store for over a month, this includes the local corner shop.

i’m not wanting anyone to relate or anything, i’m just leaving this here for those people that may need it.

we are all falling apart one way or another. so let’s find hope together.