I’m slowly beginning to fall off, into the deep dark hole I just came from.
I wish I could keep going or just be happy or just be okay.
Everything I loved has become everything I hate.
What do I do when all I feel is pain? I want to die and not feel, I wanna be nothing or anything but this.
I’m constantly facing the wars in my mind that are now wasting my time.
I’m so much stronger but I constantly feel that much weaker.
I know I will get through this but it all just feels never-ending and I’ve become hopeless at some stages.
During the first part of this blog, I truly felt out of sync like everything had a tint and I couldn’t see clearly but now I reached for help.
I continuously told myself I will get better by myself but I never did so here I am. Seeking for help and willing to find better even though taking that step makes me feel weaker.
So I hope this shows you that you can always seek for more or anything you need. You can find anything and everything you want; the world is your oyster.
Keep fighting, keep going.
You got this more than ever!
I love you and you matter! Don’t wait for too long, if you need the help please access it and reach it. Even with the doubt in your mind and the negative thoughts all over.
It’s all a sign for you to become better and so much stronger.
Here are some websites and contact information when you are feeling extremely low or not yourself. Also, don’t be scared to contact me or comment. Everything can be anonymous. Your mental health is my priority.
Childline, you may think this is for quite a young audience but they offer to the age of 19.
They offer 24-hour service for all young adults. You also can check their website for any information or help.
Website: https://www.childline.org.uk/
Phone: 0800 1111 (you will not be charged, it is a freephone)
Kooth is a provider that is for all ages! They are an online provider for help or advice, alongside counselling. Kooth is also a free instant messaging through the internet from 12 pm till 10 pm on weekdays and 6 pm till 10 pm on weekends.
Website: https://www.kooth.com/
The mix is free information and support for under 25’s in the UK. It includes a 1-2-1 chat, which is online counselling and also a crisis messenger for those in need.
Website: https://www.themix.org.uk/
Phone: 0808 808 4994
The Samaritans is another service that is ready to listen to you, however, this is not online this is via phone. They are also open 24/7, 7 days a week and 365 days a year!!
Website: https://www.samaritans.org
Phone: 01484 116 123
For information on anxiety or depression or suicidal thoughts:
https://youngminds.org.uk/find-help/conditions/anxiety/
https://www.supportline.org.uk/problems/depression/
https://www.runawayhelpline.org.uk/advice/suicidal-thoughts/
Love yourself, find yourself and better yourself.
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