Who even cares?

I’m over 800 days clean but also nearly insane.

All that I stopped for them to keep ignoring. It’s like I’m chasing them to start realising.

What I’ve become…

How far I’ve come!

Why do I have to remind you, to see what you wanted me to be?

I got here without no help and at no cost.

I forced myself out of the hole that you made me choose but now I’m out you don’t even want to turn back and look.

I’m trying to do you proud but all you make me feel is down.

You don’t love nor am I enough.

I did all that you wanted for nothing but to be ignored.

Even though I love myself and I am where I am due to my own strength.

A little recognition won’t kill.

It’s like you’re punishing me for all my sins.

Please stop all these hints.

You won’t have to wish for my death; I’ll commit it.

One day I won’t be here and you’ll be just fine.

I don’t matter to you anymore and that’s fine.

You moved on and replaced me like a piece of furniture with no heart or part.

Why make me come so far just to be alone?

You aren’t with me so I’m losing and breaking.

Soon I will be leaving and you won’t be stopping.

One day I’ll commit all the things you wanted me not to…

OR

One day I’ll be all those things I told you I will be, my several careers and countless differences to the world. One day I’ll be there but I’ll always remember how I got there. Because of me. Nothing else. ME.

For me being the strongest and making myself the proudest.

I will be okay.

I will make sure of it.

I will go far or maybe ill stop.

Whatever the option; I know I did well.

I know my battle lasted and I tried. Now that is enough.

Find yourself, Love yourself and better yourself.