Motivation

Lately, I’m not striving and it’s just hurting.

But that’s okay as it is my time of pain.

It was the 3rd year of the anniversary of my suicide attempt and everyone around me was laughing.

I have several other anniversaries coming up that are still triggering my sadness which is leading to some sort of madness.

There is no motivation which means no satisfaction which leads to several distractions.

I wish I could explain what this time entails.

It is the worst and I wish to not feel.

I wish I could heal but it is all so surreal.

I hope God will find me before I lose my mind.

This time is precious but I am no longer ambitious.

The reality, the loss of sanity are all breaking my fantasy.

But hopefully the next time I blog I am sharing something wiser and better.

So apologies for my inconsistencies and lack of postage, I still love you all.

I am just losing myself and hopefully, soon I will start choosing myself.

By the will of God, everything will fall into place.

Find yourself, Love yourself and better yourself.