…

I want it to end but has it even started?

These thoughts are endless and the emotions are restless.

How does it feel to not be so mixed with emotion, confusion and so much explosion from within?

It is like a volcano erupting, spreading and disrupting.

I feel like I’m unable to breathe, let alone see.

See forward and move forward… How when all this is leading me backwards?

Back to the urge of peace through harm, back to old ways which mislead me, back to what I left to become this me.

What do I do when I’m so lost within me that everything around me has become nothing?

I feel like I have the answers but choose to ignore them.

I feel like I’m just battling something weak and that I’m too strong for it.

It feels like this is just a blip… but it’s so ongoing.

Never-ending.

Never finishing.

The hope won’t leave me that one day; the good days will be more.

The good days will be there.

The good days that are so constant and full of all those positive emotions… yet I have to feel.

The darkness will leave…

Hopefully.

I pray for a time that this all becomes reality.

Amen.

Find yourself, Love yourself and Better yourself.